They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder

Maybe we both needed to be just a bit farther

We both thought it would all be the same

But there were no butterflies when I saw your face

I could not explain this awkward detachedness

It was you but it was different

This wasn’t the same person I had been missing

Flashbacks of when your hugs made my heart skip a beat

You had not yet kissed me and I already couldn’t breath

No

Who are you and where is He?

Same face…

Same body….

But not the same heat

Could it be that you’re the same and it is I who has changed?

That as time went by my love for you was replaced?

Was it always a facade?

I keep searching, please help me find you

Is it that I am in love with Him?

The Him that you no longer are?

Is He the one that still holds my heart?

Maybe it’s because you left

And with absence love was replaced with resentment

How do I explain to you that I’m in love with the memory of you

But I just don’t love you

I feel closer to you when you’re gone

Loneliness compliments the sadness of my loss

The distance makes the idea of “us” a comfortable existence

As I continue to yearn for the “we” that is now missing.

Copyright (c) 2012  Sheilah Martinez