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You

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I needed to see something different

I had it all but something was missing

I prayed, I waited and you came

Undeniably heaven sent

You showed me all things beautiful

You did that for me

Can you blame me for wanting all of you just for me?

More than physical

I love your soul

I see your heart

There are no words to express

The peace I feel in your embrace

Flashbacks of your smiling face

The last thing I see before I go to bed

Sweet dreams of my head on your chest

Listening to your heart mimic my beat

It’s almost religious

How you were exquisitely designed just for me

I prayed and you came

Undeniably heaven sent

All I see is beautiful

Because all I see is you

You came

You left

But what we had will forever remain

Eternal love

Copyright (c) 2012  Sheilah Martinez

 

Not The Same

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They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder

Maybe we both needed to be just a bit farther

We both thought it would all be the same

But there were no butterflies when I saw your face

I could not explain this awkward detachedness

It was you but it was different

This wasn’t the same person I had been missing

Flashbacks of when your hugs made my heart skip a beat

You had not yet kissed me and I already couldn’t breath

No

Who are you and where is He?

Same face…

Same body….

But not the same heat

Could it be that you’re the same and it is I who has changed?

That as time went by my love for you was replaced?

Was it always a facade?

I keep searching, please help me find you

Is it that I am in love with Him?

The Him that you no longer are?

Is He the one that still holds my heart?

Maybe it’s because you left

And with absence love was replaced with resentment

How do I explain to you that I’m in love with the memory of you

But I just don’t love you

I feel closer to you when you’re gone

Loneliness compliments the sadness of my loss

The distance makes the idea of “us” a comfortable existence

As I continue to yearn for the “we” that is now missing.

Copyright (c) 2012  Sheilah Martinez

Him

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Him

Hombre

Incredible

Manly

I know nothing about him

Yet I know everything

And I knew I was in love

His presence exudes sexuality

His lips

His touch

His heat

All of him

Just for me

Just maybe

Carnal Bliss

His kiss on my lips

On all of them

His gentle strength

Heaven in his embrace

I thanked God

I thanked deities

Blasphemy at my peak

Skin to skin

He gives me life

And yet

He kills me at the same time

….TBC

Copyright (c) 2012  Sheilah Martinez

 

 

 

Last Love Letter

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The Love Letter

The Love Letter (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Let me think carefully before I put this on ink

Gotta have some composure before I turn this new leaf

New beginning starts with me leaving

Can’t say I like the way this love story finished but we both know it’s best for me to go

You disagree but deep down your heart knows…

As you open up this letter

As you read my very last love letter

Smile turned cold

Not what you expected

We’ve been through this before

I can’t bear to see your face as I walk out the door

As you open up this letter

As you read my very last love letter

And the pages reach the floor

I hope time will soften the blow

Of my last love letter to you

 

Love letter…My last love letter

And with it I give the remains of us

I leave you and leave behind what once was

What we had

what we shared

Memories that we swore we’d always remember and now we try so hard to forget

Remnants of a future turned past

All that is left

Not even pictures can recreate

The feelings we shared when we built those moments that were meant to stay We strayed

We let our pride get it the way

As you open up this letter

As you read my very last love letter

Please don’t take it out on the next

Love is not always what you expected We’ve been through this before

And I’ll leave before love begets scorn

As you open up this letter

As you read my very last love letter

And the pages reach the floor

I hope time will soften the blow

Of my last love letter to you

 

Further down the pages and the paper gets wetter

Dry your tears

Think of all the laughs we lived

The late nights I held u while we’d sleep

It hurts now and in time you’ll see

Your place wasn’t next to me

I’ll miss you and want to return

Not because we belong together

But to recreate the feeling that no other love was better

Please accept my letter

My last love letter

And don’t stop reading until the very last letter reaches the end of the wet paper Tears falling down your face

The only thing I’ll ever regret is not being there to kiss your tears away

As you reach the final page

This is all that is left

No goodbyes

Just my love letter

My last love letter to you

©SHEILAHMARTINEZ2012

Cranberry And Love

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We can hardly breath

Caught up in the moment

While he kisses me to sleep

His heartbeat was my lullaby

And I was his tantalizing peak

We live for the nights we can’t remember

With the ones that we won’t forget

Tonight we will remember it all

Waking up without a hangover

Overdosed on him

We made our own music

Moving to our own beat

New scene

we’ve been here before

He gave me a feeling

It’s what I’ve been looking for

He calls me his baby

We belong together

If we keep this up you won’t be able to breathe

Without me next to you

I can’t help that you have the same affect on me too.

 

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

The Act Of Love

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We played our role

Academy performance

Perfect couple

You and Me

Always together

Picture perfect scenes

Me and you

Like a novel

Like a play

Practice makes perfect

And we couldn’t let them down

The audience

Always watching

Took no chances

No double takes

Scene one

Cut

Straight to the chase

You and I

We took a bow

As I forgot our vows

To love you forever

Show stopping

Putting on a show

For the world to see

To see us

As we should be

And now I see

I forgot the most important thing

I forgot to love you

Dimming lights

Empty stage

I did almost everything right

Perfect hair

Remembered all of my lines

But I forgot to love you

Perfect lips

Glossy like you love them

Didn’t miss my cue

But I forgot to love you

Now the credits

I was the leading star

I took the applause

I took the glory

This was my show

And I glowed

I basked in the lime light

I had it all

I had you

Red carpet

Elbow rubbing

A star

Amongst the stars

I missed my wish

Amid the mist

Of my ignorance

To your significance

I forgot to love you

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Poetic Affair

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I was his

His personified muse

He was my heart

My love letter

We never slept together

but we made love

I was his

Passion on paper

I left my mark

on his heart

Tattooed

on his left ventricle

He carries my face

Engraved

in his memory

Latenight

Whispers my name

Sweet

like the Hennessy

on his lips

Like the scent of him

Strength

mixed with blunt truths

Kush breeze

I was his

I am his fix

His soul calls out

Bleeds for me

Innocently

evoking

Intoxicating

Passionately

Explicit dreams

Of his ink

dancing with my ABC’s

Love dream

turned love story

Love story

turned

burnt love letters

Morphed love

Now ash embers

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Love You Too

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Love
Why do you always have to play
Love games?
Pretending like all is okay
But I can’t ever have what I want
Lazy love
Always half-assing
It’s always something
Makes me want to break up with you
If only I could
I’d run the other way
Instead of wanting you to stay
I’d change my address
And my number too
I’d even give you a fake name
To keep me away
Far away from you
Then you’d never find me
Until you catch me off guard
Like you tend to do
When I least expect it
Or maybe I let you find me
Seems like I keep on falling
But always for the wrong type
Foxx knows my pain
So I let it burn
Usher no regrets
Someone always told me it’d be this way
You love someone
but aren’t reciprocated
They’re too busy
loving someone else
While you’re too caught up
Can’t see the one that has you on a pedestal
Losing is inevitable
Trying to play love’s game
Unfair advantages
Of Love’s blind ways

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Leighni’s Room

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I thought he was my dream guy
I dropped the ball on this one
I knew I should have listened
Woman’s intuition is always right
Now I’m sitting here waiting
It’s hours past our reservations
Our anniversary ended
You forgot and I’m still waiting
Holding on to what we have
it’s three hours past midnight
I still don’t know where he’s been at
I’m really getting tired
Of this constant “stand me up” game

The guy I left for him
keeps calling when I’m lonely
It’s almost like he knows
You’re out and I’m home alone
You have a new message
Left a few you ignored my texts and
I gotta tell you im really getting tired
of this “stand me up” game
He leaves me a message
I’m getting kinda restless
I’d usually ignore it
But tonight I don’t give a shit

“fuck that ***** that you love so bad”
Now I’m really hoping that you’ll call me back
“fuck that ***** that you think you found and since you picked up”….
Yeah he knows your not around

he’s in town for the weekend
Why am I up I should be sleeping
He’s glad I answered he’s been thinking
We should talk
if id just listen
If im happy
why didnt his call go to voicemail again?
Where are you when I need you
We shouldn’t have these issues
You love me but I can’t get the time of day

Its four hours past midnight
I still don’t know where you’ve been at
Seems like we keep heading towards a dead end
The guy I left for you
Hates that I love you
And Hates it more
that i allow this pain
He never thought he’d see the day
He’d be the one making excuses
Not for you he just can’t stand
To see my heart break
His voice sounds kinda tipsy
I know he’s been drinking
Says it’s me who he’s been missing
Could have gone home to one of his b*tches
But first he Thought he’d holla
he bet his last dollar
That I’d be sleeping alone again.

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Got Dam.

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Got dam
How did I get here
Once again
Trying so hard
To replace
To recreate and trace
I failed to appreciate
What was before me
Maybe?
And maybe
it was your fault too
Because while I was busy recreating
You were caught up in missing her…
Love square
When we should have been one love                                                                                                                                                                                           Always busy
loving someone else
Love fail
Why?
Why does It play hard to get.
I like it better when it plays hide n seek                                                                                                                                                                                             Can’t miss what I don’t see
But dam it hurts…
to not have what I thought was meant to be
And now the funny things is…
Dam you ready for this?
Punch line: I don’t even remember who was there before you and we
Epiphany
Dam it hit me
Shit made me lose my breath
Scrunched up face
What the fuck
How did we get here
We found each other
yet again
Luck?
Same feelings like before
As if you never left
We aren’t supposed to test fate
No more love games
I’m playing for keeps
No quitting
No forfeits
I’m in it to win
Won’t settle for anything less.

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez