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About Sheilah Martinez

For projects, releases and collaborations please email 714martinez.sheilah@gmail.com I wish that I could put into words what I feel... but would you read it? And if I took those words and made a song of them would you listen? And if by chance it was a hit would you hear more than just the beat? And if you took the time to let the words sink in would you then understand?

Cranberry And Love

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We can hardly breath

Caught up in the moment

While he kisses me to sleep

His heartbeat was my lullaby

And I was his tantalizing peak

We live for the nights we can’t remember

With the ones that we won’t forget

Tonight we will remember it all

Waking up without a hangover

Overdosed on him

We made our own music

Moving to our own beat

New scene

we’ve been here before

He gave me a feeling

It’s what I’ve been looking for

He calls me his baby

We belong together

If we keep this up you won’t be able to breathe

Without me next to you

I can’t help that you have the same affect on me too.

 

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

The Act Of Love

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We played our role

Academy performance

Perfect couple

You and Me

Always together

Picture perfect scenes

Me and you

Like a novel

Like a play

Practice makes perfect

And we couldn’t let them down

The audience

Always watching

Took no chances

No double takes

Scene one

Cut

Straight to the chase

You and I

We took a bow

As I forgot our vows

To love you forever

Show stopping

Putting on a show

For the world to see

To see us

As we should be

And now I see

I forgot the most important thing

I forgot to love you

Dimming lights

Empty stage

I did almost everything right

Perfect hair

Remembered all of my lines

But I forgot to love you

Perfect lips

Glossy like you love them

Didn’t miss my cue

But I forgot to love you

Now the credits

I was the leading star

I took the applause

I took the glory

This was my show

And I glowed

I basked in the lime light

I had it all

I had you

Red carpet

Elbow rubbing

A star

Amongst the stars

I missed my wish

Amid the mist

Of my ignorance

To your significance

I forgot to love you

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Poetic Affair

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I was his

His personified muse

He was my heart

My love letter

We never slept together

but we made love

I was his

Passion on paper

I left my mark

on his heart

Tattooed

on his left ventricle

He carries my face

Engraved

in his memory

Latenight

Whispers my name

Sweet

like the Hennessy

on his lips

Like the scent of him

Strength

mixed with blunt truths

Kush breeze

I was his

I am his fix

His soul calls out

Bleeds for me

Innocently

evoking

Intoxicating

Passionately

Explicit dreams

Of his ink

dancing with my ABC’s

Love dream

turned love story

Love story

turned

burnt love letters

Morphed love

Now ash embers

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Love You Too

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Love
Why do you always have to play
Love games?
Pretending like all is okay
But I can’t ever have what I want
Lazy love
Always half-assing
It’s always something
Makes me want to break up with you
If only I could
I’d run the other way
Instead of wanting you to stay
I’d change my address
And my number too
I’d even give you a fake name
To keep me away
Far away from you
Then you’d never find me
Until you catch me off guard
Like you tend to do
When I least expect it
Or maybe I let you find me
Seems like I keep on falling
But always for the wrong type
Foxx knows my pain
So I let it burn
Usher no regrets
Someone always told me it’d be this way
You love someone
but aren’t reciprocated
They’re too busy
loving someone else
While you’re too caught up
Can’t see the one that has you on a pedestal
Losing is inevitable
Trying to play love’s game
Unfair advantages
Of Love’s blind ways

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Leighni’s Room

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I thought he was my dream guy
I dropped the ball on this one
I knew I should have listened
Woman’s intuition is always right
Now I’m sitting here waiting
It’s hours past our reservations
Our anniversary ended
You forgot and I’m still waiting
Holding on to what we have
it’s three hours past midnight
I still don’t know where he’s been at
I’m really getting tired
Of this constant “stand me up” game

The guy I left for him
keeps calling when I’m lonely
It’s almost like he knows
You’re out and I’m home alone
You have a new message
Left a few you ignored my texts and
I gotta tell you im really getting tired
of this “stand me up” game
He leaves me a message
I’m getting kinda restless
I’d usually ignore it
But tonight I don’t give a shit

“fuck that ***** that you love so bad”
Now I’m really hoping that you’ll call me back
“fuck that ***** that you think you found and since you picked up”….
Yeah he knows your not around

he’s in town for the weekend
Why am I up I should be sleeping
He’s glad I answered he’s been thinking
We should talk
if id just listen
If im happy
why didnt his call go to voicemail again?
Where are you when I need you
We shouldn’t have these issues
You love me but I can’t get the time of day

Its four hours past midnight
I still don’t know where you’ve been at
Seems like we keep heading towards a dead end
The guy I left for you
Hates that I love you
And Hates it more
that i allow this pain
He never thought he’d see the day
He’d be the one making excuses
Not for you he just can’t stand
To see my heart break
His voice sounds kinda tipsy
I know he’s been drinking
Says it’s me who he’s been missing
Could have gone home to one of his b*tches
But first he Thought he’d holla
he bet his last dollar
That I’d be sleeping alone again.

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

And We Say Goodbye

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And we say goodbye for the one hundred and
twentieth time,

Or so it seems

you and me just can’t seem to reconcile our differences.

Every time we make up and break up,

So repetitive

I made it into the chorus of my last song

It seems wrong to know each other for so long

Only to say goodbye so long

But sometimes things just don’t work out the way you want em to

I should know

look what happens everytime between me and you

Your out doing you and I’m here doing me too

It distracting cuz even then I’ve got you on my mind

Where’s the rewind button

I’d take it all back

If I only knew it would make you come Back to me

But your too stubborn

You remind me too much of me

We can’t Ever be wrong

And this is the outcome

You and me not together

when I just want us to build a happy home It’s too late

we crossed that line

All that’s left is to rewind

pause and replay our memories

Lingering thoughts and feelings about you holding me

And all the times we’d sing to random love songs together

The first time we made love to the songs I wrote for you Remember?

-unfinished

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez

Got Dam.

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Got dam
How did I get here
Once again
Trying so hard
To replace
To recreate and trace
I failed to appreciate
What was before me
Maybe?
And maybe
it was your fault too
Because while I was busy recreating
You were caught up in missing her…
Love square
When we should have been one love                                                                                                                                                                                           Always busy
loving someone else
Love fail
Why?
Why does It play hard to get.
I like it better when it plays hide n seek                                                                                                                                                                                             Can’t miss what I don’t see
But dam it hurts…
to not have what I thought was meant to be
And now the funny things is…
Dam you ready for this?
Punch line: I don’t even remember who was there before you and we
Epiphany
Dam it hit me
Shit made me lose my breath
Scrunched up face
What the fuck
How did we get here
We found each other
yet again
Luck?
Same feelings like before
As if you never left
We aren’t supposed to test fate
No more love games
I’m playing for keeps
No quitting
No forfeits
I’m in it to win
Won’t settle for anything less.

Copyright (c) 2011 Sheilah Martinez