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I wanted him so
I wouldn’t let go
It wasn’t love
It wasn’t lust
I had to win
You weren’t going to take him from me
You played dirty
So I couldn’t play fair
I had time on my side
Always in his head even when I wasn’t there
You cried and I smiled
Thought it’d do you good to taste
the same pain for a while
I played karmas role
You deserved it for breaking up my happy home
Or so I hoped
Truth be told
I knew it was ending awhile ago
You wanted him so
You wouldn’t let go
It was love
It was lust
But I had to win
You weren’t going to take him from me
He’s alone
And you’re not in love
You try so hard
But it’s not the same
He’s the only one who made you feel that way
But you smile and it works for a while
And late nights he’s not sure if he should dial
Thinking you are in a better place
Your face is still the last thing he sees before bed
But
I wanted him so
I wouldn’t let go
It wasn’t love
It wasn’t lust
You didn’t take him from me
But it was with you that he was meant to be
Him
Hombre
Incredible
Manly
I know nothing about him
Yet I know everything
And I knew I was in love
His presence exudes sexuality
His lips
His touch
His heat
All of him
Just for me
Just maybe
Carnal Bliss
His kiss on my lips
On all of them
His gentle strength
Heaven in his embrace
I thanked God
I thanked deities
Blasphemy at my peak
Skin to skin
He gives me life
And yet
He kills me at the same time
….TBC
Copyright (c) 2012 Sheilah Martinez
Beautiful
The first thing that comes to mind when I think of you
Sometimes I forget your name but never your face
The bodies change but the feeling is always the same
Not necessarily a Hollywood profile
Still haven’t found a star that shines brighter
Specially when you smile, damn J.Cole said it best
Your crooked smile is still my favorite
I was hoping you’d want to stick around for a while
I can’t offer you much but I guarantee none will take you higher
I’m not asking forever and I’m not asking for just one night
But if that was all we have let it be
Let’s make it memorable
I want to forever remember the scent of you
UNFINISHED –
The Love Letter (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Let me think carefully before I put this on ink
Gotta have some composure before I turn this new leaf
New beginning starts with me leaving
Can’t say I like the way this love story finished but we both know it’s best for me to go
You disagree but deep down your heart knows…
As you open up this letter
As you read my very last love letter
Smile turned cold
Not what you expected
We’ve been through this before
I can’t bear to see your face as I walk out the door
As you open up this letter
As you read my very last love letter
And the pages reach the floor
I hope time will soften the blow
Of my last love letter to you
Love letter…My last love letter
And with it I give the remains of us
I leave you and leave behind what once was
What we had
what we shared
Memories that we swore we’d always remember and now we try so hard to forget
Remnants of a future turned past
All that is left
Not even pictures can recreate
The feelings we shared when we built those moments that were meant to stay We strayed
We let our pride get it the way
As you open up this letter
As you read my very last love letter
Please don’t take it out on the next
Love is not always what you expected We’ve been through this before
And I’ll leave before love begets scorn
As you open up this letter
As you read my very last love letter
And the pages reach the floor
I hope time will soften the blow
Of my last love letter to you
Further down the pages and the paper gets wetter
Dry your tears
Think of all the laughs we lived
The late nights I held u while we’d sleep
It hurts now and in time you’ll see
Your place wasn’t next to me
I’ll miss you and want to return
Not because we belong together
But to recreate the feeling that no other love was better
Please accept my letter
My last love letter
And don’t stop reading until the very last letter reaches the end of the wet paper Tears falling down your face
The only thing I’ll ever regret is not being there to kiss your tears away
As you reach the final page
This is all that is left
No goodbyes
Just my love letter
My last love letter to you
©SHEILAHMARTINEZ2012
Tengo cosas que decir te
Pero no se a donde empezar
Desde que te conocí
no te eh podido olvidar
Solo escucha no digas nada…
Tal vez no sea el mejor momento
Y si es así disculpa me
yo entiendo
Sin embargo
no ay mejor tiempo que hoy
para abrir te mi corazón,
Y ensañar te lo que estoy sintiendo
Me enseñaste a reír sin pensar
A amar sin mirar atrás…
A dar sin esperar algo a cambio
Me cambiaste
con una mirada
Con una sonrisa
me llenaste de alegría
Aprendí a vivir en el hoy
A valorar cada día
Solté mis reservas al viento
Y a la misma ves
aprendí a volar
Me Deje llevar
I vivi por el momento
Sin pensar en el que pasara
No ay fotos
Solo recuerdos
Y esos los guardo
los llevo muy adentro
De mi
En mi corazón,
Junto a ti
ay los cuido y protejo
Aveces todavía te busco en mis sueños
Y siempre te encuentro.
Y tal vez no es el mejor momento
De decirte que el pasado lo olvidemos
Toma mi mano
Por que mañana es muy lejano
Y ahora es una eternidad
sin estar a tu lado
Toma mi mano
volemos
a los rincones del mundo
Dos corazones
libres amando se juntos.
©SHEILAHMARTINEZ2012
You lied to me
And you made promises
That you couldn’t keep
Did it on purpose too
But maybe not maliciously
We fought
We argued
Said things we didn’t mean
But we said them cuz we knew they’d hurt
We wanted to cut deep
Caught up
heat of the moment
We weren’t trying to lose
Scarred battle wounds
we didn’t win the war
We ended
Called it quits
Go do you and I did me
Loose ends
Left hurt feelings
stomach in a knot
Dead flower petals of he loves me
he loves me not
Thinking we should talk
but knowing it’s too late
Cant fix what was never meant to be
From the beginning
call it density
Or maybe fate
Cuz we both know it’s best we went our separate ways
Even if we could try to recreate the past
the new me wouldn’t want to
Some things are better left broken
Embers turned ash
The truth hurts
It’s a fact
Heart in a hurst
leave it at that.
Copyright (c) 2012 Sheilah Martinez
Nos queriamos,
Me dejo,
And I cried,
Y volvió y peleamos,
Se fue de nuevo,
Nos queríamos de lejos pero no nos hablábamos,
Luego andaba con otra y por despecho yo hice lo mismo,
Regreso y me quería ver pero dolida yo lo ignore,
Se fue y me arrepentí
Por que lo extraño tanto, pero no le dije
Gracias a mi pinche orgullo,
Decidí olvidarlo escribiendo le miles de canciones…
Y ahora regreso de nuevo y no se que hacer.
©SHEILAHMARTINEZ2012
I’m the one, yeah I said it
I’m the one, don’t you forget it
The way you stunt, that’s me
The way you swag, that’s me
The way you compose and sing songs,
Did you forget? That’s me
The nostalgic feeling in your heart baby,
Yeah that’s me,
It’s me
The empty pit deep in your soul that’s me…
Can’t you see?
Yeah you’re wasted
And yeah you’re wasted
It’s useless, but keep trying to forget me with a replacement.
Don’t know why you’re pretending,
Fronting like your celebrating,
We both know I’m the reason that you’re always getting faded, cuz she ain’t me…
So take a shot for me.
Sheilah Martinez 